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Bianca's self evaluation :)
10.8.10
 Let's start off with a description of how people view me:
These are actually a few points that I have noticed. With the description of myself in mind, during the past few weeks, I have noticed nothing, but then, one day, I was brought to the attention of something which I had not seen. AGC may have several 'groups' as everyone obviously can make out. Many people have problems and I finally know what they are about. In my opinion, I think that AGC does not have many 'groups'. I would just call them 'splits'. Using the word 'group' would just totally scrap the meaning of AGC - as G stands for group (note that it is singular). One lunchtime, I was sitting with a few people and then they told me. I know I probably have been away and not with the majority of the group and I am very sorry. I will try to change my position in the group slightly (although many say it is the same, this was only brought to my attention last Monday). I will try to interact with more of the AGC because I know, that for a fact, many people have problems with us, as a whole. WELL, now, another thing. In the beginning of this year, I wrote a blog post, saying that I was not going to be..a pushover. However, many people still say I am a very BIG pushover and that I have problems with having 'no' as an answer. SO, I will try my best to stand up :) Also, many people say I have a problem with expressing myself as well, but don't worry, I'll try my hardest to because there have been at least 3 people who have said that, but it's ok :) Recently..
30.7.10
 I am so sorry for not blogging much, but sometimes, I just don't know what to talk about. However, today, I thought about some incidents which have occurred recently. Sometimes, when we must split into groups, for example: camp, little groups to work in, or maybe even lunch groups, we seem to always want to be with our friends. This is not a problem, but there is just not much thought with it. You (just using 'you' to make it easier to say, and this is not directed at anyone) may be in your little world and it may be a HUGE relief when you find out that you are in the same group as your friends, but have you thought about the people around you, when they aren't in your group? There is always another problem. Sometimes, when someone announces we have to be in groups, there is always a few thought which pop up into our minds. These is always this generalisation with the thoughts of who is going to be in a group. I don't mind when it just comes for little things, but when it happens over and over again, don't you think the person left out is sick of it? People just have to be a little more considerate, and I know there have been problems when you read blogs and say, "Oh, this person is telling us to be considerate and she's not." Don't worry, I'm trying my best to try and be aware of my surroundings a bit more and I'm trying to be nicer. Moving on. Sometimes, I just can't wait to Year 12, because I think that Year 12 is a year where everything comes out. Many of you disagree and think that this is wrong because there is no way, all the bad things will come out. Firstly, I would like to say, I may not be the happy and clueless person you think I am. You may think, I mostly make jokes; I am a dumb person; I only care about little things and not big things. Yes, these may look like they are true and probably are, but there's more. Sometimes, little incidents, to me, are like unforgettable memories. Let me recap one day: It was a normal day at school and luckily, it was someone's birthday. However, I was supposed to do something with the entire group, but I had plans of my own. These plans probably weren't special to anyone, but I thought it might be for the birthday girl. I was extremely sorry on that day that I had not participated for the group organisation thing that was supposed to happen, but I was hurt to hear the words, "Yeah, it's like you paid any money for it..". On that day, it was the first time I had ever cried at school. You see, little incidents which aren't important to anyone, can stay in my memory. Right now, nobody can let anything slip out, in case a friendship is destroyed, so I got thinking, what if it slipped out in Year 12? We're already going to uni and might not see each other again, so what if our friendship never lasts? I seem very unconcerned about my friendships just then, but it just feels normal for me. Leaving Year 6 and going into high school. Now, all my primary school friends and I never even talk to each other on msn. Hmm, we'll just see when it's time to let all our feelings out. Lastly, I never really noticed it, but then, I really want to thank these people for the happy feelings I always get when I see them. On the dashboard, you can see how many followers you have, and I always see a number: 3 (I know, it's not much). SO, I would like to thank Natalie Wu, Lily Chan and Natalie Ho for always listening to me ramble on about boring problems and stuff. And thank you for following my blog :) Labels: friends, life, problems |
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